Sorry, I am a FAILURE this time!

I know it sounds irony, coming back after such a long time just to say i am a failure. Yeah, i feel it so much now that i cant say anything that i remain silent for a long time. I stumbled, but i can't justify. I know its my fault, i failed terribly. No words can undo the done, and no feelings as shattered as it is now.

No point me saying anything, but this is the biggest failure i felt so much. I may sound corky, but deep down inside the tears can't stop. All i can say i will make sure i would never ever repeat it back, and i hope i am not a stranger for what has taken place. I am sorry from deep down inside. No way this going to repeat.

SORRY!

The Ways of Wisdom, #2

We must be willing to let go of the life we planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us.

- E. M. Forester

A Poem to Ponder!

The poem every Indian Man should read!

Kudos to you 'Unknown Poet', it rings an alarm!:P

The Ways of Wisdom, #1

I have found a kind of serenity, it seemed no longer important whether everyone loved me or not - more important now was for me to love them. Feeling that way turns your whole life around; living becomes the act of giving.

- BEVERLY HILLS, B.1929

Gateway of Myriad!

Probably you must be wondering what on earth I am blabbering about, but true enough I have identify the supremacy of one of our vital appendage on our body, in giving us an epigrammatic walk to our inner feelings. Yes, the eyes, the one and only gateway to our soul and inner monologues! Why eyes? Puzzled still? Now let give you a vivid picture of what I think as the ‘Ultimate Gateway to our Soul’; the eyes!

I have seen in many cases, where people avoid eye contact when they are making statements, for matter of sake, any kind of proclamations. Is it a way to escape from mendacious statements made? The truth is, eyes can’t be lying, and the untruthfulness of each remark made can be concluded by giving such a strong eye contact. According to a friend of mine, there is a simple method of knowing whether the person is making a false statement of trying to succumb you into a forgery statement made. He said when the person looks more to your left when he is in conversation with you, that gives a probability of 80% the comment is bogus! How far is the truth? Further investigation needed! Why don’t you try it out with a friend of yours!

So do eyes really hypnotises?

Apparently, I should agree on the statement above because in many occurrence, eyes can be very much intimidating. With oodles of impression can be made, this organ of ours considered to be ‘deadly’ as well. In fact, if you have seen the Indian Classical Dance, The Barathanatyam, there are plenty eye-expressions which can materialised each and every emotions, right from being happy, sad, angry, lustful and also even being suspicious. It’s indeed a vital ‘weapon’ a person need. And giving such eye contacts with expressions, the partial message needed to be transmitted would be understood by the other end who is receiving it. Start understanding the ‘messages’ from the eyes before you could read the body language!=)

Well for a start, look at your colleague’s eyes when they are in different moods. You could definitely see the deviation of the cornea-popping to the iris squinting vary proportionally to the feelings that they are in. Without a doubt, I strongly believe that the eyes are the first step to known the inner feelings. Beware of eyes!

The Cautious Ship!

A handsome and intelligent cameo meets appealing yet witty lass, and love sparks between them! They have had the most lasting relationship, and manage to get through every thick and thin of existence. And at the end they live happily ever after.

Wait! Why on earth this only happens in movies and foretold chronicles? Is there really a relationship as this good? Think twice!

I wish every relationship in this world ends with a wide smile and also a happy ending. But it’s hard to endure this sort of bond. Regardless of whatsoever affiliation you are committing to; from spouses, friends and any other rapport exist there will be much problems faced. It needs an extra caution to be taken in consideration to maintain a long lasting empathy.

Why it’s so difficult to sustain a good relationship?

Pretty much assumed earlier there will be myriads of factors involved in a bad-reputed-bond. For example, one may take relationship for granted; A friend who ignores their acquaintance just for other mere things, only to realise that they were busy collecting stones when they have a gem with them. I often come across some acquaintance that easily falls under the tapestry of this scenario. Probably, it’s time for reshuffling and re-evaluating which friend is indeed needed in life.

All this year I have learnt that relationship is almost similar to the ‘Touch N Go’ system. Those who appreciate you for who you are will stick with you longer than the ones that only take you for a ride. Why still people do fall for this so-called ensnare? Mind boggling!

It takes loads of understanding, fair amount of truthfulness, and a little fun, not forgetting also a dash of intuition for one to identify which relationship will be lasting and which is a one-stop-go-link. Don't get vignette with all those myopic ‘promises’ of the untruth. So let’s start appreciating those who really will be with you through the years and start maintaining a distance for those who you think not worth to be kept in the circle of trust and relationship. Start now before it too late!

As for me, it took lots of wrong turning before actually I am right on track. I had tidal wave hitting on and on, but I am certainly happy with those I have around me now! Thanking always the three-lettered-guy for all the guidance and giving me such wonderful acquaintances to escort me throughout my life.

Male Domination, Finally!

Break from studies is good, but when you have such a long gap, it eventually becomes indistinguishable and lame. As for me, after being such a couch potato, I relented to my sister’s persuasion and end up following her for shopping at the so-called urbanised mall in Sungai Petani; The Village Mall. Frankly, I think this is almost the counterpart of Bangsar Village to smaller scale. At least it has Starbucks in it! *that’s something!*

So while I was walking around this mall, I was quickly fasten to a scenario which I rarely see and I was so fascinated to relate myself to the scene. I, being the friendly guy as always I manage to get the person talking and I found out some interesting stuff about the person I am going to introduce next! So I proudly introduce to you, Mr. Arif, the entreprenuer at the mall; down-to-earth, unique and speaks very good english!=)

Yeah he draws mehendi. And it’s an art piece that I saw drawn with his bare hand and with such a clear idea from his mind! Salute you Mr.Arif. It’s hard to see a guy dominating in this field and I think he is very good at it. So anyone who wanted this person to lay his art piece on your hand for your big day, then I can fix you up with this talented person! Gosh, Mr.Arif will be thinking I am doing some sort of marketing for him.

The truely talented guy, kudos to you bro!

Despite being interfered constantly by onslaught questions from me, he indeed never let his concentration fade away and managed to put up a good art work at last!

His art piece! Awesome!!

Disgusting aint it??

Gross?? Can’t help much but this is the scenario in one of the famous bakery back in Kedah, day in and day out. The shop-helper didn’t even bother to make a point of keeping these flies away till I summoned her to do so! Please people; check thoroughly the environment before you really wanted to purchase anything at any point of time. As for me, I have banned the purchasing in that bakery totally!

Red Handed Bro, Red Handed!!

Talking about weird collection that I have made previously, there is someone I would to introduce to you all. He is also weird but only on his own vanity. I finally broke into the pride and made it public! Introducing now is Harnesh’s collection of clothing labels. He goes around knocking me back into organizing; perhaps I need to teach him how to organize those labels which hangs on his cupboard door. Bro, you are caught red handed! *Feeling proud*

Regards.

LEWD as it is!!

Have some respect for holy places please!

I was dazed looking at this picture! Such an obscene printed t-shirt for prayers at mosque! Doesn’t he know the restraints of attire you should be wearing to holy places? I would strictly band him from coming in again! Please, it’s okay for you to have such a printed tee but make sure you know the appropriate place to wear it. He needs some psychoanalysis. Anyone care to give him one??

Junk or Memories??

Memories never fade away. That’s for sure, but when memories were held with some objects together with it, it’s hard to decide whether to let go the entity or the memory. Well the entity gives us a walk down memory lane when we gawk at it, but yet this object is not a sight for sore eyes. You may think what crap I am talking about, but this was what I had to endure when I finally need to chose whether it’s the memory or the entity.

When I meant entity, it’s all those crappy things with such a big sentimental value, so-called. Yeah after some knock on my head to step back to reality by Harnesh, I am finally letting go those junks in my room. Yeah, don’t get shock, I feel so weird when I look at those things I kept as my so-called sentimental-valued-stuff! So presenting to you the 'Weird of the Weirdest', starring Sanjay the Geek!

Broken table lamp, which I used since I was 12! My first ever table lamp!

Some-out-of-fashion belt which was with me since I was like 9! Ok I know it gets weird from one picture to the other!

The worst of all, ninja-head-banner I used for my award ceremony for my SPM result, pink brush which I never once used it out of my room, a pink paper bag which I have all those reload cards I used in first semester of my foundation years and the best of all...drum roll....my first ever toothbrush I used in UNITEN! Weirdo!!!

I had bid 'them' all farewells, and leaving a life of not being a geek. Thanks Harnesh for showing me how geek I was! Those things are now R.I.P but the memories of me 'throwing' it away will remain forever! Good laughing stock indeed!

Really??

Facebooking have been a vital activity for everyone nowadays, and I am not left out in doing the same as other do! And lately, the quizzes over the facebook has been provoking and at the same time interesting. Due to the, monotony scenario I am enduring currently, I relented to the aggravating yet attractive quiz of all, and here is the result!

Can you believe it?? I know women 100%!! That's outrageous! Gosh, I am still shocked!

p/s: I am just waiting what Harnesh, my best buddy have to say about this! A message for him, I am better in ladies than you do! And Theiv bro, want to have some extra tutoring session from me??:P

Collection or Nonsense??

Have you done anything that you classified as hobby which at the end turns out to be something vain?? My answer would be a BIG yes!! I have had an obsession once over collecting few items which I think I can classify as futile now! I have been collecting Clorets Mints’ boxes when I was 18, the Correction-Tape when I was 17 and some weird-taste mint which eventually the box has zodiac sign, when I was 16. Not forgetting, halls wrappers when i was 15! When I gaze back what I did, I feel absolute freak! Solitary moments of me lead to unfavorable collection. But I am proud that I did make a point to collect! * At least I act as if I do*

And latest collection item of mine which I started like few weeks back is collecting 50 cent coins, and I find that my dad is helping me out with the collection! And this time, the collection benefits me!

All this makes me wonder, am I really that weirdo?

p/s: The pictures is samples of it. Trust me i have loads of it in my house, and finally i am planning to throw it away!=p

Someday....

I am just yearning hard that someday I will get a chance to endure the situation below!

What I would do is; ask for a mere autograph and of course ask him some questions which I think explicit to be blogged about!=p

I wish and hope, someday i will get this chance!

p/s: If happens to be, the person in this picture reads this * which i dont think so* i am sorry for this. I just find it nice to be blogged about=) Dont mind me much! Chill and Cheers!

Intoxication Unlimited

Boredom. I am harebrained with my own situation. So with ample time on hand, I utilize it to go through my friendster profile, since I have not been updated on the profile. Facebook have been the latest obsession and I think, somehow rather, facebook is more intermediary level.*shrugs* Talking about browsing through my friends profile, I was attracted with one of my friends picture uploaded. At first it gave me a shock of my life, but after some serious consideration and thinking done, I think as the Adidas slogan goes, ‘Nothing is Impossible’! So let me introduce to you, the intoxication unlimited!

And the aftermath of an hour of unlimited stock of chill and cheer!

Damn! This people can drink! Kudos and hats off buddy! Nice pictures by the way!