Epilogue of Friendship

It has been my way of writing entries the way I think and what I feel about life, and here we go again; something regarding life and how it changed in a matter of years. Well life reallocation as I always talk, is something that still makes me pin-drop silent every time I think about it. It feels like just yesterday I came out of my secondary school that now; I am merely an engineer that walks in to work place to do my exertion.

Well life has really changed from day one. If I re-walk the life I went through, it is full with loads of confrontation which is still fresh in my memory. I rejoice those happy moments and I make the bad one to be my guru in learning about life.

Apparently, I was engrossed to write this entry while I was taking my dinner with my group of friends. The way we are and the matter we spoke every added year is different and unique in its own way. Let me give a real life scenario I went through so far.

Scenario 1

This I reminisce back into year 1996, when I was in my standard 4. I still remember the group of friends I was sitting and talking. It was Zaki, Hafiz Azmi, Chandru, Gobinath, Sarah Syahida, Muna Farhana and Nanda Kumari, the people that I hang out with the most. The topic we usually discuss is about cartoons, games that we need to start playing and a little bit of school related matters. And it’s always been some story that is more fun and less serious.

Scenario 2

Walking down year 2002, and this is back in my secondary years. I was in form 4. The group of friends that I hang out would be good friends. Shuhadah Basaharuddin, Norhaniza Shukor, Siti Sarah, Rajiv Pushpanathan, Janager, Thina, Ng Kheng Aik, Ooi Chyn Suang and few others. Content of our speech would be study-related material and also a little bit of gossip and normal life talk.

Scenario 3

Coming to recent year of 2007 and this is during my college life. Group of friends that I always hang out with Harnesh Gill, Rajpal Sandhu, Harish Hariraj, Rajanen Jeya Balan and the modus of our speech will be regarding lectures, test, gossips, life and obscenity! Content of our speech, is more serious and less fun.

Scenario 4

Recent days and this is closely related to our career life. Friends that I hang out with are those who are very close with me since college days; Nirmala Devi, Harnesh Gill, Rajpal Sandhu, Harish Hariraj, Mekala Devi, Rajanen Jeya Balan and Uthayashankar. Pretty easy as it is, what we talk is mainly related to work, politics and upbringing of our career and life. And of course the general topics as well. A well balanced conversation with a combination of seriousness, fun and obscenity will always be practiced each time we meet.

Can you see the clear cut of the topic we talk as our age grows? Maturity level increases and the content of our verbal communication get more enhanced. It doesn’t mean that those years of us ‘wasted’ on talking unnecessarily is not needed, indeed it’s vital to let our mentality to adapt and nurtures better day by day. Life reallocation takes place everyday with much perseverance. Let it happen and adapt to it sooner than normal and everything that occurs will be smooth sailing ahead.

Life never stops from running in a loop. And each day is new playground for us to discover and learn. Indeed life is the greatest guru for every each of us, so never stop living it to the fullest cause you never wanted to stumble one day and feels that you have missed some portion of life. Be yourself and enjoy every inch of life!

P/s: For those names that I din mention in this entry, you are not forgotten! Love you all buddies!

Divulge of the Mind!

I am taken aback every time I come across people who take things for granted and do things that can hurt others. Baffling to my mind, it’s so easy for people to forego and foreseen those good deed one has offered to him/her, and just ignore the person totally. No courtesy even to be there when they needed the assistance. Life is in such, that people nowadays are selfish and also ignorant.

There were few incidents that really budge up my nerve and make me reflect and gaze on how people can be egocentric. I have learnt the new panorama of life where self-centered style of life is vital. But this doesn’t mean that we should be ignorant towards what other would feel. After all the assistance has been rallied round, one just can miss out on the person, just like that?

I grew up in a very family oriented manner and also very co-related community, that this all seems to be something very abnormal. Idiosyncrasy is what I can categorize those people who seem to be thinking only on their well-being and disregarding those who were there for them when there was no one around. Life itself has been my greatest guru, and I am thanking GOD every second of the day, that he bestowed me a great family and simply-amazing friends; not forgetting my great life that I am enduring day by day.

Time will come for those who turn their back to their true friends and overlook them. Because, even when you think no one notices you, that Three-Lettered-Guy is always governing your each step! He who moulds you will know what you deserve and when you deserve it! Rules end out!

Sense of Disturbance

Have you felt that life in such a way, that everything around is interrelated? Yes, its co-dependent and all the happenings have its own core of the way it occurs. I woke up today morning from my dream, calling my mum while I was trying to beat the so-called thief that wanted to broke into my house. Funny as it is, but this made me wonder, why did I dream on this particular thing?

Right after I realize it was a morning reverie, I made few calls, particularly my sisters and also my mother. But thank God everything is fine. Why there were such an insecure feeling that this delusion of mine is going to happen or happening in real? Some things in life are hard to explain, so we are left unanswered and it’s better if we don’t take a serious consideration on the phenomenon.

But there are acquaintances of me having the Deja-vu feelings. We know that we have been to that particular place in our unconscious mind. Is there a proper explanation for this? Vaguely I would say that, everything in this world and universe is brought together with energy of unexplained mystery, called the Aura! We get what we feel and think. And this is the base and foundation for Law of Attraction. This is some sort of baffling anonymity. Collision between science and fiction is aggravated each time this ideology is been discussed. Where the truth is placed upon? I befuddled always!

As long as I am here, being a very strong follower of Hinduism nothing is reckonable. I believe in the teaching of, if we think good, we will get good outputs. Practicing this believe stalwartly, I think, good thoughts bring good yield. Be positive with whatever happens in life, because when there is instance of negative occurrences, God has planned a constructive harvest in the future. Life is short, so live life to the fullest.

Best Regards

Not too Young Anymore!

The dominos of life is yet been discovered a little by little. And here I am sitting in my office going on standby shift alone on a shutdown day at SONY. And looks like the time is not doing justice for me, it seems to be ticking pass tardily. As I am sitting here, myriad of learning and teaching of life comes into my mind. I vividly can hear all the advice that I heard and read before. Life has really budged up its pace, that human constantly having breathless run to catch up with it. Scary as it is, but this is the scenario that we ALL are going through day in and day out.

Advices that keep on taunting me since I was small started pouring into my mind. The data (advices and teachings) recorded in my mind is been refreshed again and all the puzzles of advices taken in, and is coming into one piece.

I still remember my Uncle, Mr. Sibepragasam, gave a useful advice which I think suits the life shifts always. He asked me a rhetorical question which is an advice by itself. He uttered to me on a fine evening when I was 9 years old.

“Sanjay, why are you crawling when everyone else is running?”

Time doesn’t wait for us at any point of life. So why are we still sitting and enjoying it going away from us? Time to tie up the shoe-lace and start running after it! This is indeed an emblematic question which still goads me all the time.

Another person who I always respect for the advices given is my beloved eldest sis, Sharma George Daniel. She gives me loads of advices throughout the period of me growing up. The man that she sees now, is the output of the mould that she created carefully. She told me a few advices which ring an alarm till this very moment.

“Before you start changing the environment you are, why you don’t change the person that you see in the mirror?”
-Given through my 23rd birthday card.
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“Enjoy your adolescence stage appropriately, because the freedom wings and the key are given to you with altered responsibilities.”
-Given verbally on my 21st birthday

This are the main three, inspiring words of wisdom which till now is been mocking me thoroughly throughout this years of my life. I will never forget these advices, besides the others that I am still holding at. Thanks for those wonderful souls, where because of them, I am here as someone in this society! Love you all much!

Regards

From me with Love!

Life shifts, is what I am going through now. A reality check was done, and I found myself constantly in a shock of life travel. Been already months I ended my student’s phase, now I am a working man. Surprising as it is, I have responsibilities waiting ahead of me without me realizing it.

As I walk through this working world, I realize how different a student’s life would be. All this while, when I was back in my campus, I used to lament over the assignments, test, lectures and tutorials, but now, its all left in the memory. A memory which I will always cherish and rejoice!

Advice: Enjoy your studentship life before you start stepping into the career world. I am missing those days, when I used to walk around finding for lecturers, assignments and tutorial questions from friends to be copied and working extra time to meet the deadlines. Those were the days, when I think back now, make me laugh and sadden at times!

Life isn’t getting any easier for me. Work loads is piling up, and mere rest is been taken. Constantly getting tired, and apparently I know I need to change my Circadian Rhythm. During this period of life shifts, I have been very absent-minded guy, where most of my friends think that I am ignoring them. Opportunity taken now, to seek for forgiveness cause I never did this on purpose. At times I am in a situation where I can’t be justifying further for the blames and raging anger of my friends. I am sorry once again for being so absent-minded and ignorant.

I don’t blame life shifts; it’s just me who finds it hard to cope up with the bulk-up responsibilities and workloads. I would definitely bounce back, and I keeping my fingers crossed for it to happen sooner than I expect. Thanks for those who been my backbone in this process of reality check and life shifts. Everyone goes through this process and now it is my turn. God’s grace and the faith on Him I am holding to every each day!

God blesses everyone at any point of time!

Regards

Random Check on Reality!

Blogging from my desk at Sony makes me wonder again and again, how life shifts so fast that you find it’s unbelievable on what you are going through in life. It feels like just yesterday I step out of my secondary school life to campus life. But in a brisk of time, campus life ended and I have been working for the past 5 months.

The pace of life never waits for us; apparently it gets faster than normal that it makes us choke for breath. Guess that, this is life and it doesn’t really show mercy on those who is not making an effort to keep track with it. I recall my friend quoted about life in his facebook status, enjoy life before it gets jealous of us. So immature it may sound, but trust me or not, it sure rings and alarm!

Stop lamenting about life, and start enjoying every bit of it. Causes don’t walk while everyone else is running. Remember, time is always ticking away, and it doesn’t wait for us at all.

Regards.

p/s: Rajanen, thanks for the quote which made me write this entry!

Eminence of Me!

What shall I say? It’s past my bed time, and I am still baffled to what is really happening to me?! An experience I would say, one-of-a-kind! I feel so exploited! For someone else mere flamboyant time, I became the scapegoat. I wish I am not being taken for granted, since at times I feel so! Subjugated and I feel so demoralized. The limit is bridged and rage is provoked. Let me sit, and wait for the moments to tick pass, and time shall arrive when I can finally pint-point and say my repute. Count on me, I won’t be the same.

Got Cheated??

A glance of this makes you think it’s Maggi Chilli Sauce, but to my surprise, the other day when I was dining in one of the mamak’s in USJ I got shocked cause it wasn’t the same brand as I perceived earlier. It was Mastika Chilli Sauce. Damn, the packing was almost the same! Now this is what we call ‘Deceiving!’

Lost and Frown!

As the moments ticked pass, I am still feeling I am lost in my own time and space. I am frown with what I feel as my comfort zone. I am not sure whether the feeling is right, but I am undergoing a roller coaster of feelings. Sometimes happy, sometimes sad, and often lost in my own world. But why I am the one who has to undergo this confusing situation. I wonder. There is always an answer of all happenings, but what I feel now is that, the answers is miles away and I am left stranded without a decent answer.

Confuse is not the state I am now, apparently I am lost. Lost in my own thought. Lost in my own move. I am trapped within me and my limits. All I need is an answer. This is a phase I constantly get trapped in. I maybe surrounded with pool of people, but I seems to be in an isolated island with no one around. What is actually missing? What is actually happening? Why I am the one who feels it this way?

Prayers is bridged. No more jeopardizing my time. I have to step up, but I will delay! Soon will get my answer and I will be cleared. Strength is what I need and I will sought it out!

Finally!!

After turning down some job offers I had earlier from few companies due to some reason, I finally made it into SONY!! I technically jumped and shouted overjoyed after knowing that I made into SONY! Although I had great time lecturing at Meg@tech College, yet I opt of not letting my degree to go waste. So long for now, I am signing off happily for the job I bagged. Thanks for the wonderful time buddies a.k.a students of mine in Meg@tech. Will surely miss you all!

Sorry, I am a FAILURE this time!

I know it sounds irony, coming back after such a long time just to say i am a failure. Yeah, i feel it so much now that i cant say anything that i remain silent for a long time. I stumbled, but i can't justify. I know its my fault, i failed terribly. No words can undo the done, and no feelings as shattered as it is now.

No point me saying anything, but this is the biggest failure i felt so much. I may sound corky, but deep down inside the tears can't stop. All i can say i will make sure i would never ever repeat it back, and i hope i am not a stranger for what has taken place. I am sorry from deep down inside. No way this going to repeat.

SORRY!

The Ways of Wisdom, #2

We must be willing to let go of the life we planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us.

- E. M. Forester

A Poem to Ponder!

The poem every Indian Man should read!

Kudos to you 'Unknown Poet', it rings an alarm!:P

The Ways of Wisdom, #1

I have found a kind of serenity, it seemed no longer important whether everyone loved me or not - more important now was for me to love them. Feeling that way turns your whole life around; living becomes the act of giving.

- BEVERLY HILLS, B.1929

Gateway of Myriad!

Probably you must be wondering what on earth I am blabbering about, but true enough I have identify the supremacy of one of our vital appendage on our body, in giving us an epigrammatic walk to our inner feelings. Yes, the eyes, the one and only gateway to our soul and inner monologues! Why eyes? Puzzled still? Now let give you a vivid picture of what I think as the ‘Ultimate Gateway to our Soul’; the eyes!

I have seen in many cases, where people avoid eye contact when they are making statements, for matter of sake, any kind of proclamations. Is it a way to escape from mendacious statements made? The truth is, eyes can’t be lying, and the untruthfulness of each remark made can be concluded by giving such a strong eye contact. According to a friend of mine, there is a simple method of knowing whether the person is making a false statement of trying to succumb you into a forgery statement made. He said when the person looks more to your left when he is in conversation with you, that gives a probability of 80% the comment is bogus! How far is the truth? Further investigation needed! Why don’t you try it out with a friend of yours!

So do eyes really hypnotises?

Apparently, I should agree on the statement above because in many occurrence, eyes can be very much intimidating. With oodles of impression can be made, this organ of ours considered to be ‘deadly’ as well. In fact, if you have seen the Indian Classical Dance, The Barathanatyam, there are plenty eye-expressions which can materialised each and every emotions, right from being happy, sad, angry, lustful and also even being suspicious. It’s indeed a vital ‘weapon’ a person need. And giving such eye contacts with expressions, the partial message needed to be transmitted would be understood by the other end who is receiving it. Start understanding the ‘messages’ from the eyes before you could read the body language!=)

Well for a start, look at your colleague’s eyes when they are in different moods. You could definitely see the deviation of the cornea-popping to the iris squinting vary proportionally to the feelings that they are in. Without a doubt, I strongly believe that the eyes are the first step to known the inner feelings. Beware of eyes!